I hear your voice speak unto me
Whilst I lie among the broken.
For I’m the wretch to your sanctuary
Who fears the words you haven’t spoken.
I’ve died a million deaths
Been reborn a million ways.
I’ve breathed a million breaths
And sheltered a million strays.
Throughout my intransient misery
I fray and shudder in your absence,
To such a degree of shivery
I loathe the looming silence.
I’ve shed a million tears
Over a million faces.
I’ve traveled a million years
Throughout a million places.
I try to peer through fog of doubt
Whether it builds to walls of pain.
Like a priesthood, so devout
I doth not harbor such disdain.
I’ve told a million jokes
Which brought a million guffaws.
All dressed in a million cloaks
I received a million applause.
All these manners of the heart
Why must they be ever fleeting?
At one moment, they jumpstart
Then soon after, stops the beating.
I’ve seen a million lights
Shone by a million stars.
I’ve languished a million blights
Which left a million scars.
I now stand on the precipice
Before I plummet like a stone.
Will you raise me from this abyss
Or leave me utterly alone?
I’ve dreamt a million dreams
Filled with a million knives.
I’ve heard a million screams
From taking a million lives.
Please tell me, are you still there?
For I fear you’re drifting away.
I don’t know how much I can bear
Or what more I could say.
I’ve suffered a million fools
Who’ve spout a million lies.
I’ve followed a million rules
And opened a million eyes.
Yet, those millions, I disavow
For they hold no greater crime,
Than if you chose to leave me now,
I’d surely die the final time.